Live and Let Die

This past Friday night I went to my 20th High School reunion. It was so not what I expected in so many ways. It was also a test for me. Could I go? Could I go alone? Would I kill anyone(always a question when I'm around people)? Would anyone talk to me? I had so many of these questions in my head. Mainly because the last 2 yrs have been hard for me as I rebuilt my life. Ive changed so much in the 20yrs Ive been out of school. I went from a 15 yr comfort zone to being scared out of my mind and on my own. But just like then this was a moment where I could test and see just how big my proverbial balls had gotten. Shit who am I kidding.. I have huge ones! LOL I mean I looked great, felt great and had a good time! Maybe not my ideal body type right now, but I was rocking it anyway.
Some of the unexpected things were how amazing everyone looked. Not that I thought everyone was ugly in school, but damn some of you are timeless. Its not fair that the pretty people stayed pretty, but it was great to see late bloomers in their prime (insert me looking in the mirror here!).
One thing that is great about the 20th is that most of us are over ourselves. We are no longer trying to prove a damn thing we are just being real. I was so grateful for all the women and men who shared their lives with me. Luckily, I was taking pictures all night and it allowed me to personally talk to people in a way that a simple "hi its good to see you" might have done. In truth there were some of us I just did not feel compelled to have long conversations with, but the ones who shared their lives with me were truly touching. For instance Laura, who I got to bowl with here and her husband. She did not have a first good half of her years out of high school, but she is in a great place now and she shines cause of it. Or Angie who I really did not like in HS that much (or at least when I first saw her I remembered thinking that) I was so in awe of her. Not only has she not aged much (albeit some weight gain as she told me lol) she was so real. I loved hearing about her life and how she is going to be getting married again soon. She is still pretty raw from some very sad moments in her life but she was real enough to be honest and share those with me. Very inspiring. Best of luck Angie on ur new life! Then there were the guys. I was not much of a dater in high school (maybe 2 that I can think of then I went and married the first guy I had sex with. Consider yourselves lucky! LOL) one of the guys were there I had my first date ever with him. He is married to a beautiful women and has children. It was so great to talk to them. I could tell that he was so happy and that she was too. Its was not a surprise to hear that they were successful. Thier positive energies were touchable. So congrats to the Hillards. And like fine wine these guys just got better with age. I was fascinated to see the interactions with old flames they were around. Some of the old sparks still flew and that was interesting to say the least cause sexual energy is very intoxicating. Some observations were: The guy that all the girls crushed on was still hot. I remember him in HS and I remember thinking he was very handsome, but never gave him a second glance cause personally I was not into jocks then. HEHE He himself is a very nice man and successful with beautiful kids it made me think I probably missed something about him when I was younger. Again I was fascinated by his timeless charm and face. The ones who were playas still were, but only a few still have the same swagger (KB FTW!). I was also so amazed at how sweet everyone was. I really dont recall sweetness out of all of them in HS, but there in that room was sweetness and it was awesome. Were some still cliquish? Sure!!! But not in the same way. Therefore, it made no difference to me.
I was also NOT amazed at the drama that was there. I anticipated it and sat back and smiled. Life is what it is and humans are strange creatures. I just chalked it up to the main reason I live behind my computer and not really around most humans. However, it left no foul taste in my mouth. Only a moment to blog about :).
The sweetest moment of the night was something I got to witness first hand. A moment that was probably suppose to be private so I wont name names. I over heard and had it retold to me later by one of the parties so I feel compelled to share. Two grown men who as children were enemies. One a jock, big, strong, handsome, popular, the other what most students at the time would have called a freak now we call them nerds (his words not mine). Both are highly successful men in their respected fields with nothing to be ashamed of. However, apologies were made by said jock for the cruel behavior to the other when they were younger. What came next was what I thought was straight out of a movie and made it the #1 reason I am glad I went to the reunion. He (said nerd/freak) said to the apologizer "Thank you for the sorry, and if you have kids you can teach them to not do the same thing. That would be the best sorry ever!" (I am adlibbing to protect the parties involved :)) Hands down best moment of the night, and they both have earned my respect.
All in all I had a great night and dont regret going. I DO regret my bar tabs!!! DAMMMMEEEEEE I can drink! FFS! But other then that I look forward to seeing if I will maintain some friendships or will I just go back to my corner to come out and play every once in a while. lol Either way like my title says it was great to go and Live and let Die!

Sex rehab WTF?

People.. what the heck is sex rehab and why is everyone going to one? I think this is the stupidest thing I have heard of!(ok not the stupidest.. but close) I mean really? Sex rehab? Tiger and Jesse got caught messing with other women and the answer is sex rehab? LOL NO the answer is stop being a DAH (DAH=Dumbasshole) and admit what you did. Tell the public that you messed up. This shit goes way back to Clinton, and his punk ass. If that idiot would have just said "Yea, I did this and Im sorry that its became public. I'm embarrassed for myself and my family." But NOOOOOOOOOOO He denied it and denied it. Until BAM! He was like "Oh yea I did that? Sorry!". Here is where the DAB moments come to play. Where are these women? I mean really? Your gonna let your men talk for you? If I was Hillary I would have gone public. I would have said "Yea I know about it, and we are handling this as a family. What we do is our business, and I am sorry that the public feels this is their business. NUFF SAID" I will tell you right now if they did that… everyone would have STFU! Well maybe not but you know I mean. In Tiger and Jesse's situations I am more pissed at the Woman. I mean WTF! DAB you better speak up! Not that you need to defend yourself to anyone, but cause right now you look really stupid. For one thing, when you are married to a celebrity that comes with some occupational hazards. These men and women are getting ass thrown at them all the time. So if you don't know that when you get married to them then you are a DAB or DAH (DAH=Dumbasshole). This is a business partnership not a marriage! It can't be. You know damn well that when you marry a celebrity that there is nothing normal about it. VH1 did profiles on "The wives of rap stars" those women kept it real. All of them knew who and what they married. None of them have delusions about it. If I were these women I would be the first one at these press conferences "Yea I knew. Or no I did not know" whatever, but say something. IMO the silence is just making them look like DAB's. That is just me and my opinion. Truthfully I don't really care about all these celebrities, but every time I open the internet or go to the store there are tons of crap out there talking about it. So I had to rant about it. Heres the deal people. Sex is normal! Get some fuckin self control and stop being punkasses about it. For once I would just like America to start talking real about sex. For instance… ladies watching PORN is not a crime. Stop beating up ur guys about it! Stop being DAB about it. Either watch it with them or STFU! I get so tired of hearing about that from my friend… "OMG I caught my guy watching porn", Or "that is so disgusting I don't know why he would want to watch it!" Well DAB either leave his ass or get with it! Try watching it maybe ur bitch ass will learn something so he won't have too! Or maybe you can just see that it's just a means of entertainment and get over it! Lord I'm sick of that crap! Oh and guys please stop thinking that all woman look like that! Cause real women don't. The ones that do don't want you they are to busy getting plastic surgery done or chasing money. However, some of us look as good if not better than most of them even if we don't way 2pds and have size 40DDD boobs, and we got the skills to prove it! So stop being DAH and stop being scrubs. Put Rosy away and go and get a real girl!!!!! LOL

Ok so this is my rant for today. Some of you are probably very offended by this, but really this is my opinion you could have stopped reading a long time ago. So it's ok go ahead and admit it you have had a DAB moment or two about this subject just like every other woman has.

Just Sayin,

The HDAB

Introduction

So many of us all have DAB moments. Let me share todays:

Thinking to much about someone and somethings that are not worth the time or energy.

Why do we do this people? I know why! Its a DAB thinking process. If you think about it, when we waste energy on someone/s or something it is our own brand of torture. It's (whatever or whoever)not thinking about you! No one else is suffering just US! So lets just stop being such a DAB and get our hustle on! Go to the gym, go out dancing, read your fav book, hang out with friends, call your mom (or sisters) DO SOMETHING. The DAB move is to stay in the place where we are. If we do we have no one to blame but ourselves! We are the DAB that cant get it together!

Phew... Rant over cause its late! LOL

On a happy note I did take some really cute kids to see a really sweet and wonderful movie. So that means I took care of my Star Player and her kids, and that is not a DAB moment for sure.

Stay tuned for some great vacation DAB moments coming in the next few blogs!

Just sayin,
The HDAB!